effingsirius: (we used to laugh)
Sirius Black [Maraduders Era] ([personal profile] effingsirius) wrote in [community profile] marauderstower2016-10-01 08:48 pm

spoopy shenanigans [ota]


It's Halloween. Clearly this means it's time for shenanigans.

Or at least a party. Come costumed (or at the very least clothed.) Here there be alcohol and spoopiness.

Have fun!



[ooc: sob idk what this is go forth and have fun ppl i guess toplevel and attack at will?]
rab: (in a world so dirty)

whispers we can only hope

[personal profile] rab 2016-10-08 10:11 pm (UTC)(link)
He doesn't want to be the cause of that worry but he can't quite help it, the way his fight or flight instinct manifests.

Still, he wonders if he can salvage it.

"Damn stuff is too sticky, isn't it? Gets on everything, everywhere, for no bloody reason." Yes, blame the glitter.
rab: (while you're sleeping until you believe)

everything is fine dot jpeg

[personal profile] rab 2016-10-08 10:34 pm (UTC)(link)
Regulus is already mentally scrambling for an answer, something to explain it all away. He's always been a good liar, but it's also always fallen short when it comes to Sirius. Still, he's almost ready, prepared to drawl something out lazily, but Sirius is piecing things together too quickly.

It would be worse if Sirius thought they'd fought somehow, right?

Still, his heart is sinking. Just a little. (The cruelest part of him still sometimes wonders which of them Remus would pick, if forced.)

"Huh what?" is what he finally settles on, lamely. Perhaps a fight would have been better.
rab: (how many years have i been sleeping)

waylt

[personal profile] rab 2016-10-08 11:08 pm (UTC)(link)
"What? No--"

It comes out unbidden before he can even stop to contemplate the fact he had just been considering passing this off as that, when in reality he can't actually stomach the thought.

Suppose that marks where he stands, then.

He shakes his head then, a little too vehemently. "No. No, we didn't fight."

We just sneaked off behind your back.

Merlin.

"That's... not what this is. Not at all. Remus and I--" It's quiet, and almost timid. He doesn't know what to say. Any possible way for this to not sound fucking terrible for having hidden it.

"We wouldn't fight because--I love him." It's drawn out of him hoarse, barely audible.
rab: (while you're sleeping until you believe)

#everythingisfine

[personal profile] rab 2016-10-08 11:35 pm (UTC)(link)
Regulus catches enough of those emotions to piece together various aspects of the problem. He feels hollow, and cold, and bitter, and guilty. The step back means something, and there's a sharp, closed-off hurt that flickers across his face before he can shutter it away.

Before he can shut down his emotions before he starts to feel even more ill, seeing Sirius do the exact same thing he is. They're too alike in that way. Then Sirius is talking and smiling and--

Regulus takes a breath, shrugs noncommittally. "A while," he says, softly. "Not--not a very long time. I'm sorry for not saying anything, I just..." Another breath, this one almost shaking. "He's been helping me. I don't want to be like that and I can't..."

Do it alone, he doesn't say. Because that's cruel.
rab: (in a world so dirty)

IDK HE'S GETTING THERE

[personal profile] rab 2016-10-08 11:56 pm (UTC)(link)
"I didn't want to put everything on you again. You've always protected me and I just... I couldn't do that to you, couldn't tell you about it. You'd throw yourself away for me, and for what?"

A coward like him. His voice is thin and sharp like crackling glass but it's familiar, borderline, and he's trying to tone down. He breathes, because he knows the next step is shutting down entirely.

"I was afraid I was too much like them to face you. They tried to make me hate you, I spent too much time there, learning how to--" When he looks at Sirius it's imploring. "I wanted to be someone you could be proud of first."
rab: (while you're sleeping until you believe)

Re: DO NOT!!! D O THAT, REG!!!!!

[personal profile] rab 2016-10-09 12:33 am (UTC)(link)
There's something to be said for the fact that he doesn't immediately lash out with an I don't deserve it, which speaks quiet volumes for ways in which Remus has already helped him.

"And I want to protect my big brother," is what he says instead. Firm and quiet. Less like a spiraling tower of crystal and a little stronger, pressing a reminder of when they were children, still close.

He frowns anyway though, brow furrowing. "You left because you had to. Things would have just gotten worse for you. It was for the best. I've always been able to keep my head down." He doesn't mention how it hasn't quite been enough any more. "That's how I survived, and it was fine, but I wanted something different. Want something different."

"I don't want to feel like strangers anymore, Sirius."
rab: (how many years have i been sleeping)

I FORGOT TO CLEAR THE SUBJET LINE i am ashamed

[personal profile] rab 2016-10-09 12:45 am (UTC)(link)
There's a quiet in him again, a way also familiar in that it's him processing, working through something to figure out the best response. Not calculated, just pushing through all the shit life's thrown at them.

"I love you," he finally says, quietest of all.

He wants to hug him, but he's not sure if he's allowed. Instead a hand reaches for him and catches the end of his sleeve instead, grounding.

(Something else Remus instilled in him.)
rab: (while you're sleeping until you believe)

i can't even not typo

[personal profile] rab 2016-10-09 01:08 am (UTC)(link)
Regulus inhales a little at the touch, grasping his hand and threading their fingers and clinging to it as if it's a lifeline. Maybe in this case, it is. When he moves forward it's not an energetic surge nor a frightened shuffle, but something in between. Now that his touch is accepted he slings his free arm around Sirius' back, fingers curling tight in the fabric across his back. "I missed you all the time," he whispers, "but I wanted you to be okay the most."
rab: (intoxicated with a life of tears)

[personal profile] rab 2016-10-09 01:28 am (UTC)(link)
It almost looks like Regulus is going to cry but instead he buries his face in Sirius' neck with something that sounds terribly like a sob but evens out into a shaking breath.

"Please," he whispers, "Let's never be apart like that again. I thought, because you avoided me--" that Sirius had hated him. "It was stupid. Things will be okay now."

He'll get out, somehow. And hope that Sirius really is okay.
rab: (how many years have i been sleeping)

[personal profile] rab 2016-10-09 02:03 am (UTC)(link)
"You didn't abandon me," and this is fierce, staring up at Sirius with his brow furrowed. "I told you that if you could get out, you should. You did what you could, and you didn't make your own life hell just to help me. That's what I wanted, Sirius."

He breathes, shaking his head. "Better one than neither."

But then he looks a bit like he's afraid - afraid to hope, anyway. "I want out. I don't want to be there any more. If there's a way--I want it. I don't need any other family."
rab: (while you're sleeping until you believe)

[personal profile] rab 2016-10-09 02:31 am (UTC)(link)
"Shut up," he says, and this part he's genuinely angry about. "You think I would rather you die? You think I would have been able to live with myself if you threw yourself away like a big hero just to get me out? Be realistic. This is how things had to be for a while. We can fix them now."

He doesn't say that he was bitter for so long and that Remus had made him realize the problem in that--it's not a good time for it, in any case.

Regulus is bright. He always has been. Bright enough to realize in a moment's clarity that it's probably not just the moment. His heart plummets into his stomach but he doesn't let on. Can't let on. Doesn't think about what it means.

"Don't say you're not smart." It's this he focuses on instead, softer. "Only someone smart could protect me for as long as you did. Just let's do what we have to, now."
rab: (in a world so dirty)

[personal profile] rab 2016-10-09 02:44 am (UTC)(link)
Better Sirius than Regulus, in his mind - the brighter, better of them, braver and less afraid.

He doesn't want to break anyone's heart. Doesn't want to hurt anyone. Doesn't want to be hurt anymore, but that part is far less important.

Regulus still doesn't let him go, keeping him tight against his chest.

"It was smart. Don't argue with me. We'll fix it now." Then there's a pause, brief, and he murmurs so that no one but Sirius can possibly hear him.

"You can't hide from me, Sirius. You don't have to pretend for me, either. You're allowed to be angry."

He's not even talking about what he's just realized - he refuses to touch that - but he knows Sirius is upset either way, and he should be allowed to be.
rab: (how many years have i been sleeping)

[personal profile] rab 2016-10-09 03:17 am (UTC)(link)
I didn't want to find out which of us he would choose is what Regulus is studiously not saying. He doesn't think he ever will.

"No. It's nothing like that. I swear, it wasn't. Things were just... I didn't want to make anything awkward. I thought--" you hated me, he also doesn't say. "I thought it might be weird. It wasn't...like that. At first. I still had to...pretend, around everyone else. Pretend I really, you know."

Hated people.

"Please don't think--I just didn't want to be a problem." That much is a bit too painfully honest.

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